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[Life] Doing What I Must
(Be warned: this post jumps around from topic to topic. *snicker*)

Okay, so how is it that, in the past two hours, I accomplished more than I did in the entire past two days? Shirts finally hung in the closet. Two big sacks of garbage tossed into the dumpster. And I didn't get the dishes done, but I did at least collect up all the loose ones and put them in the kitchen. I guess it was the fear of having to think, "I had two days off and didn't get anything done," that spurred me into action.

And I checked the mail on the way back from the dumpster. Got my new voter ID card plus a little comic-book-shaped info packet for Dragon*Con! Okay, there is gonna be way too much stuff to do there. There's an anime track, art workshops, costumes, robotics, I ought to check out the Star Trek track for nostalgia's sake, and I have to see Voltaire perform at least once... Of course, that's assuming I can tear myself away from indigoskynet long enough to see any programming. *hee*

Oh, right, back on the mail topic, I also got a phone book, which is nice. There was a big stack of ten of them sitting by the mailboxes. I assume they're for us tenants. *chuckle*

In unrelated news, I want to apologize to everyone at campfuckudie (especially my fellow Furuba players), for not posting since Wizard World, and to eslington, for, uh, not having ever posted to his Eberron RPG. I promise I'll do something for both games tomorrow night after work. And I'll be on AIM/IRC so you can bitch me out until I do. Deal? Deal.

That's one of my biggest problems. It's kinda like procrastination, but kinda different too. If I manage to stay up to date on things, then it's not difficult to keep up, but the moment I slip, that makes it a lot harder for me. The longer I get behind on something, the harder it is for me to bring myself to catch up. I know it's foolish, but I still haven't shaken the habit.

It's how I screwed up my last college semester so badly. I missed one assignment. So I thought, "Okay, I'll get that done soon." But before I did, it became two assignments, and then three, and more, and the more it piled up, the less enthusiasm I was able to gather up. And soon it was the end of the semester, and I'd never made a motion toward catching up. This is why I'm so nervous about going back to classes. Indigo suggested a while back that I was afraid of success; I don't think that's it. I'm afraid of failure. I'm terrified that I'll fall back into the same habits, that I'll waste the last chance I have to salvage my education.

Okay, I know that's a pessimistic place to leave off, and I'm really feeling more optimistic than that indicates, but I have work tomorrow, so I really should cut this post short and turn in. See you tomorrow, intarweb.

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Feeling: exhausted exhausted
Listening to: School of Rock - School of Rock

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solderini From: solderini Date: August 18th, 2005 08:43 am (UTC) (Link)
S'all good, dude, I know how it is. You should know, though, that we now have a Shigure, an Ayame, and a Hiro, and they are super-incredibly excellent. OMGHiroissocute. Also, I have a small plot idea that need not lead anywhere, but would involve Kyou, along with Yuki, Hanajima, Uotani and Tohru. Lemme know if you'd like to hear it.

Also also, isn't it frustrating how good habits are so hard to form and so easy to break? But you know, being afraid of failure generally leads to feeling like a bigger failure when you sabotage yourself, from my personal experience, so go! Attack class with vigor and glinting teeth!

Bah, I'll shut up now.
jungle_goddess From: jungle_goddess Date: August 18th, 2005 09:39 am (UTC) (Link)
Noah and I are going to be at Dragon*Con. It would be really cool to meet up with you, if you have a moment to say hi.
paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: August 18th, 2005 10:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
I can't wait to meet the two of you. Shay talks about you all the time, and it'll be nice to meet some of his friends!

jungle_goddess From: jungle_goddess Date: August 19th, 2005 02:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Great! Let's make this happen.
paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: August 19th, 2005 02:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
I work the Comics track room which is in the Mariott across the street [down the stairs from the pool], so you'll be able to find us there all weekend.

We'll do dinner or something, as we've promised we'd visit at least a couple of the parties zorathenne and vernard are throwing.

paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: August 19th, 2005 02:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
I work the Comics track room which is in the Mariott across the street [down the stairs from the pool], so you'll be able to find us there all weekend.

We'll do dinner or something, as we've promised we'd visit at least a couple of the parties zorathenne and vernard are throwing.

jungle_goddess From: jungle_goddess Date: August 25th, 2005 06:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
We're staying at the Marriott. We'll look for you in the comics room. Dinner sounds great. We never get to go parties at DC, but we won't keep you too long. There's only one gathering I'm scheduled to attend at 4pm on Saturday.
paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: September 9th, 2005 02:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
WE MISSED YOU!

Shay says we were in the same place at the same time but we didn't get to intro.

Next year! [Unless you're doing Megacon, which I'm gonna try to make].

jungle_goddess From: jungle_goddess Date: September 10th, 2005 10:03 am (UTC) (Link)
We poked our heads in one room a couple of times but there was always a panel going on so we didn't want to disturb. There should be a bulletin board or something to keep quicky track of people (I know DC is prolly too big for that).

Overall, we had such a good time, Noah wants to go back next year. Hopefully, we can make tighter plans.
paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: March 27th, 2006 05:31 am (UTC) (Link)
We should get started on those plans.
rachelk121 From: rachelk121 Date: August 18th, 2005 01:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
yes, but now you have a teacher on your friends list, who will be more than willing to harass you about turning your homework in ;)
paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: September 9th, 2005 02:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yay!
bzarcher From: bzarcher Date: August 18th, 2005 08:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Side note: If Voltaire has more than the self titled CD and the Devil's Bris availible, and you or Indigo could ping me about it, I'd probably be very happy to paypal you some $$ for said cdage.
paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: August 18th, 2005 10:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
He for sure will.

Banned on Argo and Boo Hoo at the minimum and I am pretty sure he just released another one.

bzarcher From: bzarcher Date: August 19th, 2005 01:20 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, my. I didn't realize that.

I am a bad semi-Industrial/Goth/whatever.
paradisacorbasi From: paradisacorbasi Date: August 18th, 2005 10:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think being afraid of success and afraid of failure are so close that you could easily be both.
sanity_cheque From: sanity_cheque Date: September 9th, 2005 02:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
So how WAS the trip to Dragon*Con, Shay? We're all eagerly awaiting your con report :D
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